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following my friends and the flesh I lost my faith in God when I was
a teen. I did things in my life that I am not proud, but as a teen
you don’t put much thought into things, you believe you are too
smart to get caught. I lived a thug life with my older brother and I
followed him everywhere as I was a tom boy. My first sins in life was
beating up people for money that was owed to other friends for drugs.
From that I went to stealing stuff in exchange for money. Being
younger than my brother I was not allowed to go with him at all
times. My brother went robbing people and I was not able to be a part
of this because it was done at night and I had to attend school the
next morning.
They always say that God intervenes in some things, and
my brother was caught one night robbing someone and got arrested. So
off course he went to prison and I was left alone. He went to prison
for several years, got out on probation and is currently a youth
pastor. He is the founder of Radical Impact Ministry for troubled
teens in the Connecticut area. I
didn’t have a close relationship with my mom. Mostly my mother
worked and my father was retired at the time I was at home. My mother
was not a very good communicator. At 17, I felt alone in my home even
though there were other older siblings, I still felt alone because my
older siblings had either moved out or had families of there own. I
started hanging out with girls who where interested in cosmetics,
clothes and boys. I met a man who was in his twenties and I started
believing every word he said and soon got pregnant while living in a
christian home. I was forced into marriage to him. A few months later
he went to prison for theft and drugs. I filed for divorce later and
got into a heated argument with my mom so I left the house and lived
moving around having multiple jobs while being pregnant and still
going to school.
After
giving birth to a beautiful baby girl, I went back to living with my
parents but still wasn’t close to the Lord. I was forced to go to
church on Sundays (house rule). In between church and baby activities
I partied and still hung with the wrong crowd which was only about
clubbing, drinking, and meeting guys. I
met my second husband while working and this slowed me down from
going out regularly, I soon got pregnant with my son out of wedlock
so we got married a few years after my son's birth. Several years
later we had another child. We were together for 5 years before
getting married and we were together for 10 years before we got
divorced. My marriage got broken because we both wanted different
things, and had differences in our approach to maturity and making a
life for each other. During this process, I rekindled my faith in God
and embarked on the road of redemption.
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